WOW it’s been a while. i’m back and i’ve lost 18lbs!!!! im on my way to my goal, only 22 more to go. here is my intake/outake as of 11am (will edit later) B 1 cup oatmeal (147) 1 glass of skim milk (91) that should be it for the day since i’ve lost my appetite because of the new depression meds i’m taking. the down side is i never have energy to work out anymore...
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did horrible on a math test. ate popcorn. (300) ugh… so much for fasting. PRETZELS (100) PEPPERMINT ICE CREAM (200) got a massage today. good day in total good day good day
oh hey. 12/14/10
been slacking the past few days. got into college, but before that sorta had a few depressed dark days hiding in my room. Intake: ACCORDING TO PF CHANGS WEBSITE NUTRITION INFO: 1 lettuce wrap (140) 3 dumplings (210) white rice (75) egg drop soup (70) noodles (100) 2oz dipping sauce (50) skim milk (80) Total: 725 Outtake: Elliptical 30min (-387) 725-387 = 338 I still feel super...
yesterday (12/9/10) was not a good day food-wise or life-wise. I dislocated my shoulder and might have to get surgery…. i’m finding out from college next week…. the combination of stress i put on myself and work is having on me made me want to eat. i felt bad for myself. i know that’s not an excuse, but it’s what happened. TODAY’S INTAKE: B: 2 cups black...
B 1/2 thin slice of banana bread (100) (MOM PLEASE THROW IT AWAY) L (purged most of it) hummus (250) 10 thin unsalted pretzels (100) pita bread (165) sour patch kids (200) Snack whaaaat….. chai latte nonfat milk 12oz (150 cals) D (purged) small small bowl homemade healthy fried rice (250) (mom made it special for ME and literally begged me to eat it) purged glass of skim milk...
i fasted until 8pm (what a failure i am) small bowl of homemade corn chowder (300) thick slice of banana bread (250) handful of pumpkin seeds (100) couscous (300) 1 bite of a bagel (75) total: 1025 WTF i had that all at once…. that’s so disgusting. at least i had my personal trainer today, she kicked my ass! but still. i’m going in the wrong direction. last week i fasted...
B- banana bread slice (250) L- small handful of pumpkin seeds (100) D- n/a i have much to do today so i am going to try and stay distracted and not eat anything else!!!!!! i have the motivation. Monday, I am fasting again… it feels so good.
i had two eggs and half a bagel with my grandmother for brunch went out to dinner with just my mom and had 1/2 a side caesar salad without dressing or cheese (so basically lettuce) i feel really gross but it wasnt a TERRIBLE day. 2 eggs (180) 1/2 bagel (150) salad (40) Total: 370 i got a new camera and a new winter jacket that is going to keep me really warm! :)
i’m not in love with anyone. i don’t have any crushes or anyone who i can sincerely see myself with. i’m hopeless and alone.
today was so much worse than the past 4 (12/3/10)
i had 720 calories today. that’s way too many…. i remember when i used to think that was a GOOD day. but right now all i can think about is how bloated i a am and how much weight i’ll gain back from this day. intake based on my serving size etc: hummus (100) pretzels (120) pirate’s booty (130) staceys chips (200) swedish fish (170) =720 that’s pathetic. none...
fasted today trainer too. i’m back bitchess
sorry i've been M.I.A. (12/1/10)
I’ve had a great 3 days fasting. broke it with a bagel today but that’s it. i felt like i was gonna faint and i was seeing black. i know. i’m weak. tomorrow fasting again. doing this til i look gooddd. Plan/Schedule B- coffee L- the library haha D- n/a 3pm trainer!! wish me luck!
today is the second day of my fast. it seems to be the only thing i have control of right now. school is too much to handle. i’m falling apart
B Bagel w/ butter L rice 3 dumplings D n/a
today 11/20/10 (edit from 'tomorrow' post)
Schedule: 11:30am Wake up 12:00pm get eyebrows waxed & go tanning & cvs 1:30pm get ready for soccer game / homework 5:30pm Sister’s soccer game PLAN B n/a L tall green tea latte (if anything) (200) D none
last night (11-19-10) i was sooo good only had broth and a little bread for dinner . . . then i got high. i had pizza and mango sorbet and some crackers but the high was amazing. i had such vivid dreams today i’m going to stick to the plan!!!!!
B Bagel (300) MUST LEARN TO CONTROL IMPULSES L Piece of pizza (350) REGRETTER green apple (90) D n/a
intake: staceys chips (200) hummus (150) sour straws (210) black coffee (0) i’m sick with mono so i cannot workout. i can barely move.
plan for: 11/17/10
breakfast: 2 cups black coffee lunch: fruit smoothie dinner: ramen soup
hey everyone. here is where i will post my progress, daily plans, and (maybe) some personal pictures.