April 2011
2 posts
4/21/11
WOW it’s been a while. i’m back and i’ve lost 18lbs!!!! im on my way to my goal, only 22 more to go.
here is my intake/outake as of 11am (will edit later)
B
1 cup oatmeal (147)
1 glass of skim milk (91)
that should be it for the day since i’ve lost my appetite because of the new depression meds i’m taking. the down side is i never have energy to work out anymore...
looking for aim ana buddy
please be out there?
December 2010
11 posts
12/15/10
did horrible on a math test.
ate popcorn. (300)
ugh… so much for fasting.
PRETZELS (100)
PEPPERMINT ICE CREAM (200)
got a massage today.
good day in total good day good day
oh hey. 12/14/10
been slacking the past few days. got into college, but before that sorta had a few depressed dark days hiding in my room.
Intake:
ACCORDING TO PF CHANGS WEBSITE NUTRITION INFO:
1 lettuce wrap (140)
3 dumplings (210)
white rice (75)
egg drop soup (70)
noodles (100)
2oz dipping sauce (50)
skim milk (80)
Total: 725
Outtake:
Elliptical 30min (-387)
725-387 = 338
I still feel super...
today 12/10/10
yesterday (12/9/10) was not a good day food-wise or life-wise. I dislocated my shoulder and might have to get surgery…. i’m finding out from college next week…. the combination of stress i put on myself and work is having on me made me want to eat. i felt bad for myself.
i know that’s not an excuse, but it’s what happened.
TODAY’S INTAKE:
B: 2 cups black...
12/7/10
B
1/2 thin slice of banana bread (100) (MOM PLEASE THROW IT AWAY)
L (purged most of it)
hummus (250)
10 thin unsalted pretzels (100)
pita bread (165)
sour patch kids (200)
Snack whaaaat…..
chai latte nonfat milk 12oz (150 cals)
D (purged)
small small bowl homemade healthy fried rice (250) (mom made it special for ME and literally begged me to eat it) purged
glass of skim milk...
today 12/6/10
i fasted until 8pm (what a failure i am)
small bowl of homemade corn chowder (300)
thick slice of banana bread (250)
handful of pumpkin seeds (100)
couscous (300)
1 bite of a bagel (75)
total: 1025
WTF i had that all at once…. that’s so disgusting.
at least i had my personal trainer today, she kicked my ass! but still. i’m going in the wrong direction. last week i fasted...
12/5/10
B- banana bread slice (250)
L- small handful of pumpkin seeds (100)
D- n/a
i have much to do today so i am going to try and stay distracted and not eat anything else!!!!!! i have the motivation. Monday, I am fasting again… it feels so good.
yesterday (12/4/10)
i had two eggs and half a bagel with my grandmother for brunch
went out to dinner with just my mom and had 1/2 a side caesar salad without dressing or cheese (so basically lettuce)
i feel really gross but it wasnt a TERRIBLE day.
2 eggs (180)
1/2 bagel (150)
salad (40)
Total: 370
i got a new camera and a new winter jacket that is going to keep me really warm! :)
love.
i’m not in love with anyone. i don’t have any crushes or anyone who i can sincerely see myself with. i’m hopeless and alone.
today was so much worse than the past 4 (12/3/10)
i had 720 calories today. that’s way too many…. i remember when i used to think that was a GOOD day.
but right now all i can think about is how bloated i a am and how much weight i’ll gain back from this day.
intake based on my serving size etc:
hummus (100)
pretzels (120)
pirate’s booty (130)
staceys chips (200)
swedish fish (170)
=720
that’s pathetic. none...
success (12/2/10)
fasted today
trainer too.
i’m back bitchess
sorry i've been M.I.A. (12/1/10)
I’ve had a great 3 days fasting. broke it with a bagel today but that’s it. i felt like i was gonna faint and i was seeing black. i know. i’m weak.
tomorrow fasting again. doing this til i look gooddd.
Plan/Schedule
B- coffee
L- the library haha
D- n/a
3pm trainer!!
wish me luck!
November 2010
8 posts
fasting. (11/30/10)
today is the second day of my fast. it seems to be the only thing i have control of right now.
school is too much to handle. i’m falling apart
11~21~10
B
Bagel w/ butter
L
rice
3 dumplings
D
n/a
today 11/20/10 (edit from 'tomorrow' post)
Schedule:
11:30am Wake up
12:00pm get eyebrows waxed & go tanning & cvs
1:30pm get ready for soccer game / homework
5:30pm Sister’s soccer game
PLAN
B
n/a
L
tall green tea latte (if anything) (200)
D
none
last night
last night (11-19-10)
i was sooo good only had broth and a little bread for dinner
.
.
.
then i got high.
i had pizza
and mango sorbet
and some crackers
but the high was amazing.
i had such vivid dreams
today i’m going to stick to the plan!!!!!
11/19/10
B
Bagel (300) MUST LEARN TO CONTROL IMPULSES
L
Piece of pizza (350) REGRETTER
green apple (90)
D
n/a
(11/18/10)
intake:
staceys chips (200)
hummus (150)
sour straws (210)
black coffee (0)
i’m sick with mono so i cannot workout. i can barely move.
plan for: 11/17/10
breakfast:
2 cups black coffee
lunch:
fruit smoothie
dinner:
ramen soup
hey everyone. here is where i will post my progress, daily plans, and (maybe) some personal pictures.
